![]() On the eve of climate change becoming irreversible, examining our individual relationships to progress and activism has never been more vital. The game is still teaching me the higher purpose of progress and the importance of contributing to societal progress, no matter how doomed the universe may be. Outer Wilds is a game that is humanized by an understanding and conceptualization of purpose that I have never felt. Or, I thought as I played Outer Wilds, maybe my understanding of death and purpose were shallow. I quickly gained the cynical view that religion existed to make weak people feel better about the inevitable truth that life is short and, in all likelihood, death is followed by an eternal ‘game over’ screen. I was never given any sense of a higher power or greater purpose. I wasn’t raised with religion in my life, even when Jewish customs, like separating meat from dairy, pervaded throughout my household. My father is Jewish and my mom grew up Catholic. Ever expanding anxieties about climate change and late-capitalism are stacked on top of a mind that struggles with overthinking the existential questions that plague humanity. I still have these moments of existential terror, from time to time, increasingly so over the past year. ![]() This gave me a deep, dark feeling in the pit of my stomach that I didn’t yet have the vocabulary to describe. As a child, I’d sometimes lie awake in the dark, staring at the ceiling, trying to imagine the indescribable void of nothingness that I knew existed after death. He will most certainly not.Įver since I can remember, I’ve been afraid of death. ![]() He tells himself that one day he will play all the video games. He has written about film, games, and music for Indiewire, Deorbital, BrooklynVegan and other publications. Bryn Gelbart is a freelance writer and journalist based in Brooklyn.
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